*you hurt me every second of the day, you just dont know you did;;

I was thinking bout my "problem" with Isabelle. I heard from someone that she was giving me the death sentence. I mean, whats that? And apparently she seems she's angry with me partly because I told Lai Yan about that handphone thingy. Like, that is so over? First you say now's not the same as last time, then you change your mind and say now's the same as last time. Hello? The past is not equal to the future. What do I have to do to make you see that?? I know I've changed, so other people said. But your mom herself told me you changed negatively. Your mom told me everything.. I'm not in the dark about anything now. [well except that I still dont know the full reason why you're giving me the "death sentence"]. And you blame everything on everyone else but yourself. Nice, but why dont you try telling the truth for a change?

I have no idea what to do now. There's one problem after another. I'm going bonkers soon. I bet you're not even worrying your self-centered little head about this. How about thinking about other people for a change.. Admit your mistakes.. If you dare do it, why be afraid of the consequences?.. Books and comics are right. Girls are sooo hard to understand. And I include myself too. Sometimes I just dont get myself.

And right now I dont know why I'm wasting my time on writing all of this. I'd hate to be bitching about other people [so some call it], but I just gotta get it off my chest. If 2 years of friendship mean nothing to you, so be it. I'm not you, and I dont think I ever wanna be you. I just dont understand. Maybe I'm not worth being your best friend.